"Contract Not Going To Be Renewed"

I didn't really have a contract in the first place, but ok...whatever.

The big news is-I'm now job hunting. I was careful to say this because I wanted to tell everyone who needed to know first. But I find myself needing to share and get support.

Thankfully, I have excellent folk who are simply fabulous and call me, are outraged for me, appreciate me, challenge me, and have offered to help me write my resume'.

Or re-write it.

I have to be honest, folks: I'm not sure I want to go back into parish ministry.

I know that I'll stay involved in Church work in some capacity, and most likely with youth. I have a few friends who seem to have it down: Work corporate, then come and go in parish ministry as much or as little as they want and get to do the good stuff: Relationships with the kids, teach Relgious Ed, do trips-and leave when it starts getting ugly.

This is a tough conclusion to come to because I've always believed I'd be 100% Youth Ministry-my job, my ministry, my apostolate. I wondered at times if I hadn't edged out the married life because of my dedication and work. Then again, I very often pray "Lord, save me from myself" and this just might be his way of saving me from myself.

I find it odd that I'm excited about leaving parish ministry. I have a lot of bad things to say against it. But maybe that is why I need a break from it.

I'm mad at the reason for the "letting go". I think it's a farce. But I don't sign the checks. I might get into that more later.

For now, pray for me to hear where God is leading me. I'm open, Lord. Open and ready.