Internal Infighting

ugh. I just get so tired working in parish life sometimes. Y'know?

The politiking, the ignorance, my struggle between knowing when to speak up and when to keep quiet, often feeling like I'm being passive, afraid of what will happen if I do speak up, completely disheartened when staff and parishonors alike do not embrace the totality of the Faith.

There are enough problems in the world that we shouldn't be doing this-yet I find that I'm fighting to keep solid Catholic beliefs at the forefront of what we teach others. I'm tired of battling. I'm tired of singing "God" instead of "him". I'm tired of watching what I say. I'm tired of having others put out things that are questionable, of having the magazines "America" and such on our hospitality table.

I'm tired of not being able to trust catechetical material that we order. I'm tired of not having resources that I don't have to question, publishers that I wonder about and authors that are only 80% correct. I want it all, I tell you, I want it ALL!!

And I want the youth to have it all too! And I want the dissenters to have it all too! And I want our priests to have it all too! The Staff! Everyone!

The Church has such good stuff. Such beauty. Such salvation!! Why do some reject it? Why?

*sigh*
If you are in parish ministry, take heart. God is greater than our failures. If you are in a parish and have a solid faith, please, for the love of all that's holy, get involved. If you are reading this, then please, pray for us in parish work.